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Sam kept his lips on mine, but he didn't take it any further. I finally pulled away, playing it off with a smile. "I have a big day tomorrow... I'm going to clean up the kitchen, and then I'm going to head to bed."
"I'll help you.", he said.
We did the dishes together in silence, with Buck asleep at our feet. He dried the last dish and set it on the rack and then led me down the hall, holding my hand a bit too tight. The distance from the hallway to his bedroom door seemed to take as twice as long. We both knew that goodbye was just a few hours away.
He didn't even try to pretend not to watch this time as I changed into one of his T-shirts for bed. He stripped down to his boxers and climbed under the blanket, waiting for me to join him.
Once I did, Sam flipped off the lamp, and then pulled me against him without permission or apology. He tensed his arms and sighed, and I nested my face into his neck. I shut my eyes tight, trying to savor the moment. I knew I would wish for that moment back every day of my life, so I lived it with everything I had.
He looked out the window. The trees cast a shadow across his face. Sam clenched his eyes shut, and a sinking feeling settled over me. It was agonizing to see him suffer, knowing that not only was I the cause of it... I was the only one that could take it away.
"Sam? Are you okay?" I asked.
There was a long pause before he finally spoke. "I've never been less okay in my life."
I pressed my forehead against his neck, and he squeezed me tighter. "This is silly," I said. "We're going to see each other every day."
"You know that's not true."
The weight of the grief we both felt was crushing, and an irrepressible need came over me to save us both. I lifted my chin, but hesitated; what I was about to do would change everything. I reasoned that Sam didn't see intimacy as anything but a way to pass the time, and I shut my eyes again and swallowed back my fears. I had to do something, knowing we would both lie awake, dreading every passing minute until morning.
My heart pounded as I touched his neck with my lips and then tasted his flesh in a slow, tender kiss. He looked down with surprise, and then his eyes softened with the realization of what I wanted.
He leaned down, pressing his lips against mine with a delicate sweetness. The warmth from his lips traveled all the way through me, and I pulled him closer to me. Now that we had taken the first step, I had no intention of stopping here.
Sorry.
Hey guys, sorry I haven't been posting anything in a while, just been going through some stuff lately and I decided to stay away from the internet (well apart from to talk to people) just to get clear my head and stuff. I haven't been able to post anything recently because I don't have a camera or the money to buy one which really isn't good :/ Anyway, I'll try my best to occasionally add photos or other kinds of art to this. Sorry I've keep disappearing, I promise I won't do it as much anymore.
Brand New ~ Jesus Christ
Jesus Christ, that's a pretty face
The kind you'd find on someone I could save
If they don't put me away
Well, it'll be a miracle
Do you believe you're missin' out
That everything good is happening somewhere else?
But with nobody in your bed
The night's hard to get through
And I will die all alone
And when I arrive I won't know anyone
Well, Jesus Christ, I'm alone again
So what did you do those three days you were dead?
'cause this problem's gonna last more than the weekend.
Well, Jesus Christ, I'm not scared to die,
I'm a little bit scared of what comes after
Do I get the gold chariot?
Do I float through the ceiling?
Do I di
I got asked to model...
So yeah, I got asked to model for one of the higher level photographers at college for his portfolio work and for a commission he got asked to do, so I have to do the makeup really well or I could screw up his chance of getting a space at a very important gallery opening and university opportunity :/ No pressure then!!! :L
Devious Journal Entry
Sorry I've been gone for so long guys, I just really needed to sort myself out and try to make myself better. I haven't been taking my photos due to the fact that I don't actually have a camera but I'll hopefully get one sooner or later because I'm gonna start working soon hopefully once I've sorted my CV out and stuff. Anyway, sorry for being away for so long but I'm back now
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Sex is like the only thing that hasn't become utterly boring yet